It Was A Dark Night...My Censored Thought On Aurora's Dark Night

Aurora, Colorado

My thoughts on such a tragic incident have really no bearing on what the families and the community of Aurora are thinking right now. But, I still have them. It sickens me to think that this incident was planned, thought out, and carried through. My thoughts on this, my true feelings, I will keep very censored in hopes to not offend, or disrespect anybody.

I am done entertaining the discussions and thoughts of what has transpired now. I will no longer visit that dark place of negative thoughts. I said my piece and said my prayer, now only the light and positivity can shine through.

Getting My Sexy Back, And Make It A Foursome!

Yup...Sexy

Getting my sexy back is going to take a lot more than just getting out the door and running, I realized this when trying to get out the door and running yesterday. My four month old was up and ready to go at 5:30 a.m. and that puts a halt on just going out the door. Once he fell back to sleep, the rest of the army rises and wants food, water, toys, and all the other demands children make. I soon realized the only way this was going to work in my favor, was if we made it a foursome.

With stroller in tow, my three sons and I made our way to the 200 meter indoor track. My two older boys (4 & 5) along with myself, are signed up for a 5K in August called the Color Run. Since we are doing a 5K in August, I figured I would show them exactly what they are in for. As a parent I am very excited to see them participate in their first run. As a runner....I am beyond the moon excited!

So, how did my boys do their first training day for their first 5K? They were ah-mazing! They did the whole 5K! Maybe running with my kiddos is just what I need to do to ensure I will have some sort of guaranteed  partners as I grow old. If anything, I can pass on my good, healthy habits to my kids rather than any bad ones. How did I do? Not bad. Honestly I felt great. I feel like I only took a few weeks off, rather then months. Not a bad start to getting back into the swing of things.

Would You Run For This Wednesday

Would You Run For This Wednesday

http://fakeginger.com/2011/10/02/bang-bang-shrimp/

If you have ever been to Bonefish Grill then you know how AH-mazing the Bang Bang Shrimp is. And if you have been to Bonefish Grill, and you LOVE the Bang Bang Shrimp, this recipe is so close to the original you would swear you were eating take-out from Bonefish.

If you have never been to Bonefish or there isn't one near your hometown, then this recipe will knock your socks off!! 

One bowl from Bonefish serves 4.....ok, pick your chin up off your lap, yes, I said 4.

One serving of the 4 is 337 calories, 13 grams of fat (not bad, unless you eat the bowl) 30 grams of carbs, and 25 grams of protein. The killer....600 grams of sodium...YIKES! 

So, if you're like me, and you could totally eat one bowl all by yourself here are your totals:

Calories: 1348

Fat: 52 grams

Carbs: 120 grams

Protein: 100

Sodium: 2400 grams (OMW!!!!)

Would I Run For This? OH HECK YES!! 

Would You Run For This? 

Quite honestly, if you eat this, you will need too! Especially if you eat it all alone.

*does eating count?

Whether it be small or large, do something each day, that makes you sweat...and no, eating does NOT count.

And so it begins, my training that is. I have NOT run since September 2011. It is suggested that you have a good base under your belt prior to starting your marathon training. A good base is running for 1-2 years with a minimum of 35-40 mpw. It is also very highly recommended to have some half marathons in there to, and other distances so you can get a feel for what your body does on race day.

OK. I have conquered all of these recommendations.

Prior to my 10 month hiatus I was averaging 65-75 mpw, I have 5 half marathons, 4 5K's, 2 10K's, and 1 marathon under my belt. But I have no clue how to approach my passion once agiain, like a beginner. Becasue that is exactly what it is going to be like. 

I knew this day would come, and I knew I would feel exactly the way I feel right now. I am feeling like I am going to start my routine once again and just really beat myself up. Both phusically and mentally. That first run, is going to kick my butt. My lungs are going to burn. My legs are going to be tight. My butt is going to jiggle....ugh. I loathe starting at the begining yet again. I do love that because of my history and my relationship with running, it will not take as long to get to my base as it did in the begining. I just know that I have not sweat like a runner in very long time. Maybe its also because I know where I was before and how hard I worked to get there, and that I have to do all that hard work again.

This time around I feel way more prepared. I know what to wear (to prevent chub-rub). I know what to do when my IT band gets tight. I know what I need, when I need it. In that respect I feel very good about this. What freaks me out, feeling like a failure. You know that from reading my past posts, wow, this is still so sad to admit, but in my past I would rather have quit then fail. Now, I have to just accept that I am going to fail a few things getting back, and hell, thats ok.
How in the world will I go out there and NOT compare myself to the old self? I am so competitive with myself that this week will either be a very irritating and self loathing week, or I may just surprise myseslf. Here's hoping for the latter. Here's hoping that failure of NOT being my former self will just propel me into a more improved version of her.

So, those of you who are facing tomorrow and you are on the brink of starting something this week, let this be your motto :

"GO DO SOMETHING THAT MAKES YOU SWEAT."

Do it each day. Big or small. Easy or hard. Just sweat. Sweat out the frustrations. Sweat out the irritations. Sweat out the pain. Sweat out the complications. Once you have done that, fill yourself back up with motivation, and inspiration to wake up and do it all over again.

Heres to a week of sweat...oye vay.